Once again..I try to throw up the pain

A while ago, I decided I would not have a single binge for the rest of the year.
But my mom ruined it...I am sorry if I can't be the perfect daughter. I wish you would love me and accept me, but I guess that will never happen.
Yesterday, my mom said something that really hurt me..and after that, I binged.
Not just a normal binge, it was a huge binge.
I purged after..and while I was throwing up I was just thinking about getting the food out of my system..but I was also thinking about getting all the pain I have inside me out. And I just wish it could be that simple. Just like throwing up food.
That Simple.