There are no gains without pains.

I'm talking about the weight..right? okay? just checking :]
A couple of days ago I was fasting, and I was doing so well...UNTIL! My mom made me eat lunch (Wednesday) and BAM! Eating and binging ALL DAY LONG!
I was so disgusted with myself, and very disappointed as well. I cried and I also punished myself...but that wasn't enough. Yesterday I ate half of my fridge, but purged later. Pointless...Why? I gained 3 pounds...I was already 119..but now I am once again 122.
What am I going to do? I will fast. Plain simple
Water fast for 8 days..but probably 9. (I lose 2 pounds/day)
And I am going to be less than 106 pounds for Christmas...that's all I need..that's all I am asking for. Oh yes!, sure I want to look good, but all I want is to have a great time and have a nice Christmas with my family.
And please! Oh please!!! Just a moment without thinking about my weight, how I look like, should I eat this?, how many calories?, gaining weight, hiding, etc. I want a moment of peace, a moment of happiness...A moment around the people I l•ve!