Lying is done with words and also with silence

The only way I can fast is telling my mom I am sick...And she won't fight with me everytime I refuse to eat. Cause when I am sick (truly sick) I am not hungry at all...In fact, if I am sick and I eat..I'll just throw up right away (always happens). So now that I am "sick" I've been doing very very well with my water fast.
Today we had lunch at my uncles house with the whole family..There was meat, smashed potatoes, rice, sausages, candies, brownies, cake, etc...And I didn't eat a single thing..because my mom didn't let me. Hahaha! I was so happy
I was also happy, because the fat cousin was eating EVERYTHING!!! and she was supposed to be on a "diet" but now she told me she has been eating just cereal for breakfast, normal stuff for lunch (but she won't repeat) and for dinner she only drinks tea...well seems it is not working because she is still fat...GOD! I am so happy..I feel so good

BUT!!!..(Oh yes, there is always a "but") because of my "sickness" I will go to the doctor on Tuesday. And I have a HUUGEE problem. I've dropped 10 pounds since the last time I went to the doctor, and OH YES! that was about 2 weeks ago..that would be VERY weird. And my mom will notice right away whats been going on because she knows about my ED but she thinks I'm already over it (OBVIOUSLY) I am NOT!
So I will try to put on a lot of clothes and drink lots of water and eat 0 calorie Jello so I will gain a little bit of weight (which would be just water weight) but I will be okay for the moment with it.
Well..Good night <3