Back...once again

I've gained weight the last 2 months...about 9-10 pounds. Disgusting
But I'm trying to loose weight once again. This time I'm doing the Lemonade Diet (Master Cleanse) with my mom, so she won't be mad when I refuse to eat, because this time..I DON'T HAVE TO EAT :D
I'm so happy
I really need to loose 30 pounds in 3 weeks..done it before SOO I can definitely do it NOW!
Wish me luck!

Want a perfect life..with a perfect body

Tommorrow I start my water fast (5 days) so I can lose about 10 pounds
I will also exercise for about 15 minutes a day (like intense exercise) because if I exercise more than that I would probably pass out. I know how my body works Ok?
Now that I am back, I am starting to care about my weight again...normally I wouldn't. I would only try to die by not eating anything..but now I am once again trapped in this circle...Inches, pounds, kilograms, cm, lb...*sigh* it will drive me nuts in no time.
For now, my plans are: water fasts, ADD (Alternative day diet), and 2468. (NO ABC) why? because it makes me binge, makes me lose control..that's why. :]
Oh, and obviously, exercise (but I DON'T WANNA!!!..I'm too lazy) but Hey! I have to do everything I can to loose weight and have a perfect body...with a protruding collar bone, rib cage, hip bones, wrist bone, back bone.. EVERY BONE!!!
LOVE BONES!

Back In the Game

Back...once again.
A while ago, I tried to quit this "world". (I couldn't.)
Tried to eat normal. (I felt disgusted with myself.)
Tried not to weight myself. (IT WAS KILLING ME!!)
Tried to accept my body. (How could I do that? I don't even accept myself..)
So basically, I couldn't get over my ED...And it's back.
Don't know why, but I'm really happy with it [right now]
And I decided I would fast for 5 days so I can lose a little bit of the gained weight
I am 130 right now! back where I started 2 years ago... HATE IT!
Hopefully, I will be 110 or less for summer. I really need a perfect, little, fragile body.
Feels good to be back.