Back In the Game

Back...once again.
A while ago, I tried to quit this "world". (I couldn't.)
Tried to eat normal. (I felt disgusted with myself.)
Tried not to weight myself. (IT WAS KILLING ME!!)
Tried to accept my body. (How could I do that? I don't even accept myself..)
So basically, I couldn't get over my ED...And it's back.
Don't know why, but I'm really happy with it [right now]
And I decided I would fast for 5 days so I can lose a little bit of the gained weight
I am 130 right now! back where I started 2 years ago... HATE IT!
Hopefully, I will be 110 or less for summer. I really need a perfect, little, fragile body.
Feels good to be back.